The Rainbow after the storm..

We have had a very stormy last five days here in my part of Kansas. It has been both scary and breathtaking. This rainbow appeared out our back door on Monday evening. Trevor was actually the first one to spot it and then as we inspected it closer, we noticed there was a very faint double rainbow. How beautiful. I wasn't able to get the upper one to show up in my pictures. But we could easily see both ends of the rainbow. It really excited the kids.

It is funny how we can go from hail and down pouring rain to a beautiful double rainbow. Isn't it just amazing what mother nature brings us? We seem to take for granted all the beauty in the world and get caught up in our busy lives. It was such a joy to lay back and enjoy this beautiful piece of nature with my kids. You would have thought I had given them a sucker or bag of M&M"s. lol. Oh how I love my three little darlings!!

Kiddo Tag

I was tagged by Jess!

Here we go:

If you have been tagged, just copy and paste the rules and the questions onto your own blog or post. Then delete answers, and insert the ones you think your child/children would choose. At the end of the post tag 5 others and then let them know they have been tagged.

1.) My name(s) is/are: Trevor Nathaniel, Kaylee Rose, Isaiah Thomas(I couldn't chose just one!)

2.) My first word was: Mama, Dada, book

3.) My favorite food right now is: PB and Jelly sandwich, Peas, Anything that doesn't eat him first.

4.) My favorite song is: Anything by Choo Choo Soul, Going on a bear hunt, Twinkle little star

5.) My car seat color is: Gray and black, Tan and black, Black w/yellow piping

6.) My room color is: Blue and sun yellow, Pale pink and soft green, Blue and sun yellow

7.) I love to use this kind of shampoo: Paul Mitchell's Tea tree Lemon Sage

8.) The thing that can make me the maddest is: Someone not listening to him, Telling her no, depends on the day for him

9.) My favorite person right now is: Mommy (!!!)

10.) I like to read this book over and over and over: Rub A Dub Sub by Linda Ashman, Fancy Nancy books By Jane O'Connor, Thomas and Friends, Engines & Animals by Rev. W. Awdry

11.) My brand of diapers is:Potty trained, Day trained and pull ups at night, Huggies

12.) The cutest thing I say is: Ungerware(for underwear), cowdiotie(Coyote), uv u mamma

13.) My favorite fruit is: Apples, Watermelon, Grapes

14.) When I get hurt I want: A kiss band aids and a smarties, a kiss band aid and ice, a kiss hugs and lots of love

15.) I mostly ride around in a: Pontiac SV6 Montana

16.) I go to bed at: 8:30 PM all three

17.) I wake up at: 7, 8-9, 7

18.) My naptime during the day is: from 2-4, no longer naps, from 2-4:30

19.) My most favorite thing to do is: play outside, play dress up, play outside

20.) My favorite show/movie is: Curious George, Strawberry Shortcake, anything with music so he can dance, other than that he doesn't watch much tv

OK, now I tag:

Natalie, Jori, Mia and whoever might want to play along

Being scared...

I have mentioned before about my clot in my leg. I have been to the Doctor twice about it and have been doing Physical Therapy for the last three weeks, with no improvement and now need to go back to the Dr to see what other options I may have.
I bring this up because I ran across this today. I don't know why I felt drawn to click on a link to a site I had never visited before, and then was drawn to a post they had recently put up about this site. I just know that there was something leading me toward this blog. It literally scares the He(double hockey sticks) out of me. I read this page and cried and cried. I feel so very sad for their family and that someone so young lost her beautiful life. I admire their strength and the love of their family and faith. I know they are doing well getting through this pain and seeing the new miracles in everyday life.

I have been thinking a lot about this very thing lately. I know my leg is not getting better, and I know that I can have re-occuring clots since I have this one. I don't know what caused it or why I got it. All I know is that it can in some cases lead to a Deep Vein Thrombosis. These often break off and travel to the lungs causing a Pulmonary Embolism. Which in many cases is fatal.

In the last month, I have known of 2 people in our small little town who have died young of these conditions. It is all around me and then today as I was drawn to this site, it really struck home. I am so fearful of leaving my kids behind and not being here to watch them and guide them as they grow up. My oldest has so many issues from the drugs his birth mom did while she was pregnant with him and I know my husband doesn't have the patience or the time that is required to help him get through each and every day. I worry that if something should happen to me that he won't be the best person he could be. I worry about how it will effect my other two kids, who also have issues that are starting to show up as they get older from said birth mom's same bad choices. It literally scares me to no end. I am trying so hard to think positively and think that it won't happen to me, but what if it does? Who will help raise my kids? What will their lives be? Who will care for them as I do each day, not that I don't make bad choices in their care and am not always as patient as I should be, but I try so very hard to make their lives wonderful and help them be the best they can be. Who will guide and teach them and love them as I do? I have prayed so very much today and keep praying that this (for lack of a better term)burden will be lifted from me. I pray that whatever the outcome is, that my kids will be ok. That God will look over them and help them.

I am not loathing in self pity, nor am I am trying to draw attention toward myself. I am just putting this on my blog to try and lift some of the pain it is causing me right now. I don't want to think about these things. I don't want to fear something happening to me. I want to live my life to the fullest and share each day with my kids and enjoy what borrowed time I have left on this earth. I want to make each day special and memorable for me and my family. But with this cloud lurking above my head. I am finding it very hard to do. So all I ask is that if you read this. To please say a little prayer for my family and for me to get past this.

Who in their Right mind....

I love love love this bag. But I would NEVER and I mean NEVER pay $1360.00 for a bag that I was only going to use one season. If you so wish to purchase it for me for a nice gift..you can find it here. haha.

I love a kid who's not afraid to Play!

Even if he is 6'6" and in his thirties!

We had a wonderful time on Mother's day. The kids really got their play on at the playground at the lake. We spent the day in the beautiful sunshiny weather. Me, my kids and the man I love, couldn't have been any better!

Thankful Thursday

So much to be Thankful for. I will try and keep the list short.

1. Beautiful Weather. It really is good mental medicine to be able to be outside and breath in the crisp fresh air.

2. Physical Therapists. I have had such an issue with this blood clot in my leg and the PT that I am doing three times a week has been such a pain reliever. Who knew Electro Stimulation would help so much with pain.

3. Getting over a Funk. I truly hate when I don't feel good mentally and physically. It really gets me and everyone around me out of sorts.

4. My Mother in Law. She goes above and beyond to help out when needed and she is truly a blessing to me.

5. My husband. He works so very hard for our family so that I can stay home with the kids and not miss out on the everyday things in life. He never complains about anything and is always so supportive.

6. My mother. We almost lost her in 2006 to a blood clot that went to her brain and caused her to have a stroke at 53. I thank God everyday that she was in the right places at the right time to get the treatment she needed to minimize the damages it did. She was so very fortunate.

7. Mother's day. More so, the fact that I get to celebrate Mother's day not only as a daughter, but as a mother to three beautiful miracles in my life.

Thank you Tiburon for reminding us to find the good in our lives each week. It could be so easy to fall into a pattern of whoa's me, Instead of being thankful for all the good.

Out of the Slump

Ever get in a slump when life is just so busy you really don't have time to get anything you love done and then when you do have the time to do the things you really love you don't feel much like doing them? I have been in one of those slumps lately. I don't know what it is. Just didn't feel much like being on the computer, or even blogging..gasp. Something I really love to do.

But the fog has lifted and I am ready to go. Beware..haha.

Here are some pics we took of a trip to the county lake a few days ago. Isn't it just heartwarming and adorable to see new life? There were several Canadian Geese who had new little babies. My kids loved seeing all of them.



The kids only have 6 more class days of preschool left and then summer break begins. I am having a really really hard time with the fact that Trevor is going to be starting Kindergarten this fall. My baby shouldn't be almost five already..boohooo. Time just goes entirely to fast. Anyone else have a really hard time when their oldest started grade school? Or I am just the crazy lady?

Spring is finally back around here and the last couple of days have been beautiful. We have spent as much time as possible outside and it has been lovely. We even planted a new Crabapple tree and I planted a new flower bed full of beautiful flowers. It makes the soul feel so great to walk outside and see the beautiful vibrant colors of flowers.